I have been planning a post for a while because I HAVE been following the conversation pretty much from the beginning. If you don't know what I am talking about, you can start here
at Seeking Avalon and then you can go here to the comprehensive links post
I am in the position of having no real power in this debate, I don't know most of the individuals who are involved. I live my life mostly on the edges of fandom. I have never been involved in writing or publishing. But I care very much about SF & F as a reader and occasionally con-goer. I have been mostly a silent participant so far, but I just can't hide behind my privilege anymore. I want to be among the many who have spoken out against the failures at the heart of this massive conversation.
After reading La La La, I can't hear you
I just wanted to publicly acknowledge that I am as rosefox
says "taking the first step of admitting this is a problem" for me and others around me and I want to continue "to learn about ways to make things better. "
As my friend and mentor wild_irises has suggested
, I will continue to read, and to listen and to learn. I will keep an open mind and an open heart. I will not let myself get defensive. If I show my ass, please, please tell me it's showing.
I know that is not enough. sugargroupie
is right to say
"Your words mean fuck-all to me if your mouth has written a check that your ass can't cash. Simply put, actions are louder than words. It's not just about working on your own privilege, but following through on that work."
I can only write words here, and I know it is not enough. A promise to keep learning and to keep listening and to try to be better is not enough. But it's all I have for now.